by Adele Leung
Can you imagine how it would be like if nothing ever changes?
And can you imagine how it would be like if everything changes in a split second?
In the experience of life we have probably chosen somewhere in between. Generally speaking there are two types of conscious changes that happen for those who wish to be aware of them.
The first type of change is a desire to improve on something, because we feel there is a lack within us, in desperation, we search for something outside of ourselves to fix what we feel is lacking, be it health, relationships, career etc. We need to feel good again, feel young again, feel vitality again, feel whole again, but we don’t know how or why. Therefore, we try from yoga to shopping therapy; veganism to guru-worshipping; drug and alcohol dependence to religion devotion, everything we can lay our hands on in the external world. Desperately, we search and grasp, still without knowing what it is that is causing the deep agony we wish to distract ourselves from. This type of change is such that causes and accumulates more prana in one’s life, in other words, it is the desperate fight that spirit puts up before going into the good night.
The second type of change is when the utter agony caused by the first type of change (or no change at all) is too much to bear any longer. Then there is no other choice, but to return inward, back towards oneself. This is sometimes presented as a wake up call–when something in life changes dramatically such as an outbreak of illness, relationship breakdowns, accidents etc. When we consciously return, we know there is no where to go and nothing to improve. When we realize we are whole and in unity with all by returning to our SOULS, the search ends and life begins.
Life is a returning. Going back within, into our inner hearts, is not an abstract or elusive thing. It is walking waking life, each moment, with our inner hearts. It is not keeping this knowledge in our minds, and still go through life numbing ourselves with all kinds of distraction such as compulsive working and studying, television, movies, alcohol, drugs, sex, food, facebook, even meditation with an inappropriate intent, and the list goes on. It is dealing with life, every moment as it comes. When we begin to see and act through our inner hearts, life becomes an experience of GRACE. The inner struggles, fighting and disharmony dissolve, and we begin to breathe and live FIRE rather than prana.
This is the beginning of glory in one’s life. And this moment, everything changes, truly, in a blink of an eye.