The journey in life does not commence nor end with a physical journey. It begins much before a trip and continues after all returns to normal. Yet, what is normal? My trips to Peru began 5 years ago, and the journey has never ended, and each time after a physical journey, the immense work begins. My life has never been the same, and I would not wish for anything else.
My most recent trip to this land of my heart, is very special. The work has begun far and deep on the journey, and I know it is because the time has come. The time has come for me only because now I am ready. I am ready to demonstrate to myself the shaman within. I am ready to live each moment of the divinity that I am.
Never are two journeys the same. And never do I visit this land feeling I know it entirely. The earth is changing every moment. I recognized that on this journey, even physical structures have changed in a way I found surprising. There is so much learning on each trip, I cannot even begin to articulate. All learning is a reflection to myself, who I am, where I am at…and where would I like to be fully. I meet beautiful people and souls over and over again. Those I have known since years ago, I discover them anew every time. And I continue to meet new people and hearts. What I am truly meeting, through these souls, is also a part of myself. The learning is unending, at times challenging, but always it is for my own growth if I wish it to be.
This is a truly special trip, one which after 5 years, my spirit is finally not resisting to return with my body to Hong Kong. This in itself, is an immense growth. To be able to have enough trust within, to know that I am safe to return to my place of abode, by being geographically far from the Andes.
This does not mean that being away from the land which carries so much of my soul, is easy. It is not. I still have to remind myself more so at times than others, intently but also gently, that this is a learning, an immense one. But like all other opportunities to learn, there is nothing I need to do more, but to be willing to be present to it, and to open my heart to its message.
What Peru has initiated for me in these years, is a reconnection within. However much I love a place, a person, an experience; and however much I dread or grief about others, ultimately, I have to bring that back within. Because eventually nothing matters but what is inside of us. To reconnect the external with the internal, to reintegrate all realities into the One Life. And for anything to harmonize, my lesson is to be as present to them in equal attention. To love the human realm and its madness with equal gusto to the spirit realm and its madness. Or bliss. Or both.
And I am much looking forward to be the Reconnection.
Physically, I am now in Puno, Peru. Puno is a very special place for me. It is where Lake Titicaca is situated, the energy here propels me to be clear about my feelings. The Lake is like a mirror for me, there is no hiding or avoiding when I am in Puno. This time I am in Puno alone, I have a lot of time to be on my own, to feel and to feel some more.
I have probably experienced the deepest of what love is, here in Puno. And I continue to. When I mention love, it is not only physical love that I refer to. I have experienced in both physical and non-physical ways, that of divine love here. It is a connecting web of unity of colors so incredible that I can only describe myself as being completely blown away. In this experience, I know what it is to cry and laugh at the same time when one is utterly touched to the core. As esoteric as it sounds, I not only saw but I have touched this connecting web with all beings in existence. Unity is very real for me.
In our third dimensional experience, we were born to learn and perpetuate separation. We have a nationality, we have a blood family, we have a religion. We have a a tribe of friends, a close partner or spouse, a community of some sort. We pledge our sovereignty or devotion to something, and on the other hand, we reject those who do not belong. If we stop being friends with someone, we have to reject that person, whether it be out of disinterest or fear of being hurt.
But separation as much as it is innate in our lives, is purely a fictitious phenomenon, when one has seen and touched what is connecting us all. We are connected, no matter how separative our actions tend to be in this reality. Unity, has been misinterpreted as grouping together like-mindedness in the external reality to support a certain idea. Yet when different groups have different mentalities, how is true oneness going to prevail? The truth is, unity has been there to begin with. And it is with our soul’s recognition that we are all one already, then this natural progression of honoring this connection within, will lead to actions which are truly unified.
In-truth, we do not require physical proximity to be connected. Even the greatest love can be experienced the same, despite time and space differences. Only as human beings, we doubt. If only we could trust in the fullness of unity, then we could choose according to our preferences in relationships. We could choose to enjoy close physical contact with another. We could choose conscious monogamy. We could choose conscious polygamy. Or not. However we choose, we are connected. When we no longer exist in the consciousness of separation, none of our choices will separate us. And we choose for ourselves solely, while honoring fully the choices of others.
Re-integration could be a physical coming together of people. It could also be a strengthening of our hearts, in knowing that true unity cannot suffer with distance nor time.
I do not like to travel as a tourist, where one cramps many activities into a short time just to be able to say I have been there, seen that, done that.
I enjoy to live. In a pace where life takes me, sometimes leisurely, savoring each moment with lusciousness; other times reminding myself to simply take a breath lest I forget to inhale amidst chaos.
I enjoy to feel. Simply because this is the way I am. I am disinterested in superficial appearances, be it a person, a place, an object; and external realities do not convince me in any way, unless I have felt into the hearts of all. I will listen to words and poems, but language only touch my heart when the intention is spoken with love.
I am here because of love. The love which is within me and you to begin with. It is not something separate from us, although we were brought up to believe that. It cannot be given to us by a third party, neither man nor God. When we remember the love within us, then we can share it constantly in a special synergy between another and with God.
It is with love that I journey, simply and always.
And it is with the intention to remember love, to be love, to be in livingness, that I journey.
My journey can be mundane every day beingness, or it could be travelling to the other side of the planet; however and wherever, alone or with company, each moment is lived with the intention to remember who I am, who we are.
Six weeks I have been here, in Peru. My dear brother said, this is the trip you have truly enjoyed. I have experienced the tourist parts in joy simply for the experience of navigating another reality, albeit one a little less accustomed for me. I lived with my heart connected to this land, by feeling this land, its people, its culture, its ways. Its energies run through my blood, I am one with them, their idiosyncrasies, their food, their hearts.
This is the trip I have truly enjoyed, because this time I had the opportunity to see who I am. I have been blessed by the universe to have the chance to navigate many unexpected and challenging situations. And with the land and the elements as my guide, with the support of its people and their big hearts, I have come a step closer to seeing my own heart, and the strength within. I am not alone, and I have never been. What is strength is a unity within hearts, those hearts which have recognized one another. What is strength is also the impulse to serve in further connection with other hearts.
The land, her people have opened their hearts in connection with mine, impulsing me with a deep strength to carry on, to continue to share with those afar. And it is my service to simply continue to be who I am. To carry on to travel as how my soul knows, to be in livingness, in patience and with more patience. A connection happens when there is deep understanding, we simply understand without needing to try. Then we simply be and shine and connect as who we are.